Thursday, December 17, 2009

Serene Peace

For the first time in eight months since I landed in Manila, I went to the Power bookstores in Green Belt. Well not many know of my love for books and the fact that I love reading though I am not a voracious reader like many of my friends back home.

However back to the main topic. The Power bookstore brought back memories of Crosswords back in Mumbai and Pune.

The 2nd floor of the store had ample of place for people to sit and read as well as reference the books. Oh what a peaceful experience...
I have been craving for such peace and quiet where I could just spend a few hours going through books and enjoy the surroundings. Well now I know where to go...:)

However the books in this country are really expensive, though the collection at Power was quite impressive but looking at the prices of the books gave me an instant heart attack.

It's been such a long time since I actually went and splurged on books. I remember in Pune I used to pick up books every 20-25 days even if I had a backlog to read already.

Actually I already have a backlog of 5 books here in AIM since Harsh & Nash as well as Nishant n Shubho gave me books to read.

Well so in the next 20 days I plan to finish at least 3 of these books so that my backlog for the new year would be kept to a minimum...

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

End of an Era...

Well no one loves good byes least of all me. However all my life I have been one of the last ones to say goodbye to everything be it while leaving school, engineering college or my organization.

Seeing off people has become like a second occupation for me...It was never easy when I went off to see most of my friends from engineering to the airport every other nite. However saying goodbye to friends whom I met not even 8 months ago has been a difficult experience here at AIM...

They have been my family for the past 8 months and we have practically shared all our happiness and sorrows with each other...Every other night has been made memorable thanks to the late night drinking sessions or just the b.S sessions which we would indulge in whenever not drinking.

The last 8 months are fresh in my mind and each day has been a special one.

For the last few days cohort 3 guys have been consoling me and telling me that there will be another set of friends which will make the remaining journey more exciting that what has been till date. I don't repudiate that...However there is an uneasiness at the back of my mind about how the next 8 months will span out...

I know I am surrounded by wonderful people around me and the next 8 months will be a beautiful experience in the MBA institute but my mind and more importantly heart is not willing to accept the inevitable.

The realization will dawn during the next pool party whenever it is, since the usual faces will be missing and new faces will surface to take up the mantle and the onus of carrying the torch will fall on the new batch of students from cohort 5.

Well cohort 3 as I have said before, it has been a absolute pleasure...You have been the best kind of seniors any incoming batch would have prayed for.

To my set of friends, the life and times that we have shared with each other will be remembered for a long time. The secrets we shared, the BS by the poolside, the insightful CP and the drunken revelry will all be cherished...

As I look into the future, I know I'll not find friends like the ones who have left but I am still excited by the next 8 months of my AIM life and beyond.

As KK and Shubho told me not so long back..."Tera MBA toh aab shuru hoga...Term 3, AC period and term 4...Aish karega tu abhi"...

Well cheers to each member of the legendary cohort 3...Wish you guys all the very best...And once again it has been an absolute pleasure...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Vanilla Twilight...

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Poor me a heavy dose of atmosphere
Cause I'll dose off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd sent a postcard to you dear
Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But It's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my finger are
Right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find a pose in new ways
For I haven't slept in two days
Cause cold nastalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you
Tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes
Get brighter
And heavy wings
Grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world
When I do
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back to the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling,
I wish you were here.

-Owl City...

Music

Well after all the depressing post I have written in the last few days I want to pen down some happy thoughts...

Well I would like to talk about the music I am listening to now a days...

"Owl City" is the latest band I am listening to now a days and I love their music and mixing. Just in love with the music, voice and the lyrics of most of their songs...

Just a short background on them:-

Owl City is an American synthpop musical project. It consists of Adam Young and his backing band. The name comes from Adam's hometown Owatonna, Minnesota. Young started out making music in his parents' basement,which he claims is a result of his insomnia.

Well so much for the background...

Now to the crux of the matter...

I love their single " fireflies" Don't know why but I just love the music and the lyrics of that song...It seems to be favorite song now a days. I tend to listen to it at least 3-4 times everyday...

Thanks to groove shark, I have a play list of only their songs and the minute I am back in my dorm room the music is blasting full on on my earphones listening to them non stop...

Here is how the lyrics of the song go...


You would not believe your eyes,
If ten million fireflies,
Lit up the world
As I fell asleep.

'Cause they fill the open air,
And leave teardrops everywhere,
You think me rude,
But I would just stand and stare.

I'd like to make myself believe,
That planet Earth turns slowly,
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems...

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs,
From ten thousand lightning bugs,
As they tried to teach me
How to dance.

A foxtrot above my head,
A sockhop beneath my bed,
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread. (Thread, thread)

I'd like to make myself believe,
That planet Earth turns slowly,
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems... (When I fall asleep)

Leave my door open just a crack. (Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac. (Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep? (Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep. (Please take me away from here)

To ten million fireflies,
I'm weird 'cause I hate good-byes,
I got misty eyes when they said "Farewell",

But I'll know where several are,
If my dreams get real bizarre,
Cuz I saved a few and I keep them in a jar.

I'd like to make myself believe,
That planet Earth turns slowly,
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems...

(When I fall asleep)

I'd like to make myself believe,
That planet Earth turns slowly,
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems...

(When I fall asleep)

I'd like to make myself believe,
That planet Earth turns slowly,
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams...

Impasse...

Impasse...Dictionary meaning...

–noun
1. a position or situation from which there is no escape; deadlock.
2. a road or way that has no outlet; cul-de-sac.

How apt...I find myself in a situation where there is no escape.Whichever path I choose, I am already in trouble with a capital "T"...

I have not slept a wink all night...Read nothing nor studied...Just whiled away my time waiting for this impasse to end...Well happy waiting Mr. Das...

I so wished I had a squash racket and a court to play at the moment...Even a football will do but playing that alone wouldn't be fun...:)...

Well the only solace I can find is through music and blogging and I am at it, full on...

Was good talking to dad back home.Though we spoke about business as usual, but it was such a nice feeling listening to a voice which never judges me or my actions...

Knowing myself, I know for sure that things with in me have changed in the last few months...What has changed n why I am still not able to zero in on...But yeah there is definitely something amiss here...Anyways that will take care of itself...

Coming back to my favorite situation now a days the impasse situation doesn't cease to end...

Well I guess I'll just have to fight my way back from this situation just the way I have done till now in my life...

Best Pool side party ever...

I never ever in my dreams thought that a poolside party at AIM without music would be so much fun...Well now I know...

Thanks to Shiva n Deepti tonight has been one of the most forgettable nites for me in my short but sweet stint in AIM history...

For the first time in a long time I laughed my guts out for close to 4 hours listening to anecdotes of Shiva and Deepti and their marriage as well as their love affair which is going strong since college.

It brought back memories of my engineering college days and the dreams and aspirations I had then...However none the less tonight was made special by this dynamic couple who understood each other very well and had no inhibition in sharing their life with us...

Cheers to you both...One of the most hilarious nites and also the most fun filled night in my AIM history...

I have to admit I never really thought that I was going to laugh so much tonight but I guess god has his own way with his people and after a somewhat frustrating day where I tried to do everything to please people around me I still fell short. Though my efforts were genuine the end result was far from satisfactory.

However after going through the physical as well as mental agony about the whole thing God blessed with me these 3 hrs where I was all over in love with the concept of loving n feeling...

The kinds of joke which Shiva easily narrated about his father in law as well as his father and also about his impending wedding were too hilarious not to laugh...

He had all of us in split and I am glad to have come across such people who make our day a bit more bearable and reasonable...

All in all a wonderful experience and one of the best poolside parties ever in AIM sans music...

Cheers...

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Mindfucked...

Disclaimer:- If you want a happy post to read and feel good...turn away from this page...Ain't happening today...:(

Freaking pissed off in life right now.With myself, with my life, with my surroundings...Every second day I feel like running out of this place and go to my safe abode. I am fed up putting up a happy demeanor for everyone around me...Seriously man!!

Bloody I am suppose to understand everyone's problem (n by this I don't mean you Meg so don't draw any conclusions here...plz...) but when it comes to myslef I am left to fend it off for myself. Agreed I prefer it that way n I can even handle it but atleast give me my space.

I hate this stifling life I am leading...I guess one of the reasons could be the amount of free time I am affording myself... I really need to get busy again n invest my time intelligently and into more productive things.

On top of that, most people here are preoccupied with their own things, I don't even know whom to run to...I the one person I could run to, I can't because of my own insecurities...

I know this blog is going to piss a lot of people but I am taking the chance because it's the only way I can get this frustration out of my system...

It really pisses me off when people say that they know me really well and know the reason behind my every action. Cmon... Even I don't know what I am going to do the very next moment and then you tell me that you know me... plz give me a break here...

I kind of remember my college days where I practically spent my whole day wiling away my time just to wait for evening when I could get to Sambit's building to play football and express myself completely...

It been such a long time since I have expressed myself completely. First there was football in Pune to do that, but then I quit the company. Then I had squash to rout out my frustration and express myself completely. But what now... Alcohol doesn't work for me cause that will be like too saddistic...I don't like the gym that much to exhaust all my energy over there and with blogs it leads to unneccesary confusion and mindless squabbles.

Well then what am I suppose to do... I can't let this affect me anymore...I need to take control of my life and it begins right now...

I have been wiling away time for the past 4-5 years doing nothing productive and its high time I repay my parents for their love, devotion and trust.

I hear where you coming from now Divya... May be I am neglecting the major things in life for the not so major frills of life at the moment.

And yeah, the temper is flaring up again...I guess this MBA experience is really testing my patience in anger management. I remember losing my cool before too but now days I am on such a short fuse that I don't know what n why am I doing?

N on top of that, I hate people crying and especially because of me... There are already a few people who have cried because of me and I hate it... I don't think I am ever going to forgive myself for making people in my life crying...People who care for me and really love me , end of crying too...I just don't get the drift...

Anyways enough of rambling...This one could open up another pandora box tomorrow but I really don't care anymore...My sentiments are pouring out and I am liking it...

Whatever happens next, it will take care of itself...

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Last of the WAC's...

Time:- 4.34 am
Date:- 3rd-Dec-09
Occasion:- Submission of my last WAC...

6 months back I submitted by 1st WAC amidst a lot of fan fare and enthusiasm all around.
Today after having completed the last of the 8 official WAC's which we are suppose to submit in order to receive a grade in WAC; there was a sense of relief and nostalgia rather than happiness and fulfillment.

The fact that this was our 3rd WAC in lest than a week also eroded me of my enthusiasm for the last WAC. However all things said and done another important part of AIM has ended for better or worse.

It has been so much fun writing these WAC's and it has been made even more fun due to the company which I have during these WACs.

Hence as I remember the list of the WACs written over the last 6 months ranging from HBO to marketing to economics to OM to FM to GM and last but not the least ABS, the nostalgic feeling resurfaces again and all the fond memories of those WAC nights come flowing into my mind.

I remember going through some ex-AIM student's blog before coming here and one thing he didn't fail to highlight was the excitement as well as the agony and tension of the WACs.
After having read that post I was dreading whether I will ever be able to do justice to these cases but after having survived the first half of my MBA without any major blip I can now safety say that it has been a pleasure taking on those WACs in the last 6 months and pouring out my B.S. as well as WACkiness on each one of them.

I close one more chapter in my AIM life, which is diminishing at an alarming rate.

Should I be happy or sad...that is the question ?...

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Marriages Galore

It's really the season of weddings back home in India. There are so many of my friends from engineering who are getting hitched this December and a lot many more who tie the knot in the first few months of 2010...

I can't believe that it's already 4.5 years since I passed engineering and here I am sitting in a B-School and blogging about my friends from college getting married. Well time surely flies by quickly.

I remember Sweta's wedding, when me and Hitesh had an interesting conversation about who in our batch will get married next and when.Well as far as that prediction is concerned, I am happy that 70% of that has come true. Hence good job Hitesh...We really should have opened a marriage bureau then...

Well for all the couples set to get hitched in the next few months...My best wishes and I wish you guys have a blast in your new innings with your new batting and life partners.

Hence Irwan-Megha (the love story of college to see through till the end); Rushil-Krishna; Saunil-Ami; Mansi-Chirag; Niti-Abhisek; Sanjay-Surabhi; Rounak-Kriti (only love story from school to see the light at the end of the tunnel :) ) and last but not the least Arpit-Sheetal...Add to the list Mahesh-Rashmi from Infy...and a lot many more who are on their way to be hitched in the coming year.

Take a bow and wish you all the very best for a bright future.

As for the remaining bachelors in the group and there are still many...Keep hitting and pitching...

Cheers...